Being here is good.

Today I realized, in the form of a concrete thought that I hadn't really given credence to before coming here, that previously I wasn't really enjoying life. That sounds so dramatic and moody, I know. But, in many ways, I was just sloughing through... drudgery. I didn't like my job. I was tired. I felt... misplaced. There were a great many things I LOVED - friends, family, my church, Sacred Heart & studying theology. But on the whole I felt I was missing the boat. Or ignoring it. And my life felt like drudgery more than it felt like LIFE.

Here, I feel like a big breath of life. And I like it. I love it. I feel alive. I never wish to be elsewhere. (Although, I totally miss all those above listed things I love.)

I love it here. I no longer feel like I'm just getting by or ignoring the things I desire to do because life and practicality demand it of me. I'm letting go...

"I'm holding on to Your love. I'm letting go of myself. I'll say so long to everything else. I just want to be in Your arms. I just want to be in Your arms, Moving ever closer to Your heart, to Your heart..."

- Letting Go, Matt Maher